Dear Diary,
I
was
taking a walk in the woods today and I heard that a man named Rama
would be coming through. I've heard that Rama is the most
captivating man in the
world. I
was waiting to run into him and then all of a sudden he came walking
towards me. I instantly knew that this was Rama by the way he
looked. He had the most brilliant aura I had ever
seen. He instantly grabbed my attention. I could not tear
myself away from the distraction he caused me. I began to
think to myself, "This man is the man I have to marry and spend the
rest of my life with." I had no idea that someone could
capture my attention the way that he did in such a short amount of
time. He not only made me stop dead in my tracks, but he also
made my heart skip a beat. Now, I keep
telling myself that I have to spend the rest of
my life with this man. He has to be mine, no matter what I have
to do or
suffer.
Until
later,
Surpanakha
Dear Diary,
It
has been hard to concentrate since my last
entry. I can only think about Rama and the way he holds my heart
and
affection. I only think of the passion I feel for him. No
other
thoughts enter or leave my mind. I hope he will love me too some
day. I cannot live this way, I have to have him.
Until
later,
Surpanakha
Dear Diary,
I
approached Rama today. He asked me why I was
there. I was honest with him and told him I was Ravana's
sister. My brother isn't the most popular man in the world.
I was hoping he wouldn't think any less of me. He
asked how such a
beauty could be related to such an evil being. Rama doesn't know
that I have changed my appearance to be more attractive to him.
So, I just told him that I was
unlike my brother. I'm not a
horrible person. I could be beautiful and kind, if I had
him. A little white lie about my appearance isn't so bad, is it?
Until
later,
Surpanakha
Dear Diary,
Today
I saw Rama with his wife. I'm not
sure what to think about Rama's wife. I mostly think she is just
in the way. I still believe we are destined to be
together and no matter what obstacles stand in my way, Rama and I will
one day
be lovers. I have to think of a way to get Rama's wife, Sita, out
of the picture.
Until later,
Surpanakha
Dear Diary,
I've
been thinking a lot about my relationship
with Rama since I saw him with his wife the other day. It will be
hard for us to be together since he is
married to Sita. I know that. Rama also seems to
be very smitten with his wife. So, I'm going to have to find a
way to get
her out of the picture. I'll think about it some more. It
can't
be that hard to get her out of the way, can it?
Until
later,
Surpanakha
Dear
Diary,
I
talked to Rama today. I came on a bit
stronger than last time. I kept urging him to consider me for his
new
wife. This
is the first time I've said anything of the sort. He refuses to
listen to me. He keeps saying that he is in love with his
wife. I wish he would just stop talking about her already. She is
REALLY beginning to get on my nerves.
Until
later,
Surpanakha
Dear Diary,
Rama
has made me into a horrible mess. I just cannot get him off of my
mind. All I can think about is Rama and how much I love
him.
This is turning out to be affecting me more than I thought. I'm
going to
have to get rid of Sita NOW. It seems like that is the only
way Rama will ever realize how great we are for each other. I've
got to come up with some good ideas for getting rid of Sita or I'm
going to be like this forever.
Until
later,
Surpanakha
Dear Diary,
Today
I'm going to Rama's house. Hopefully Sita will be there
alone.
If she's not, I'm going to
hide out until Rama leaves. Then I'm going to get rid of Sita
once
and for all. I
just know that once she is out of his life he will see how great we are
for each other. I plan on making
Rama the happiest man alive. The plan should be easy to pull off
because Sita is so powerless. I've just got to kidnap her and
take her away. I'm thinking that it will be no trouble at all.
Until
later,
Surpanakha
Dear Diary,
Things didn't turn out like I had hoped they
would. It turns out that Rama's brother was hiding out as
well. He was watching my every move as I went to kidnap
Sita. Everything went wrong from there. Rama's
brother, Lakshamana, got angry when I tried to grab Sita. He took
his
sword and used it on me. Lakshamana disfigured my body and now
Rama will NEVER want me.
Until later,
Surpanakha
You
have just read my version of the story of Surpanakha and Rama based on
both Narayan and Buck. The story
is the same as the story told
by Narayan and Buck, but I took Surpanakha's feelings and put them
into diary entries. I hope that my version of the story through
Surpanakha's
eyes will allow others to see her feelings and frustrations while she
was trying to win Rama's affection and love. I also hope that you
can read my story and feel like you know Surpanakha and that you
realize she thought she had good intentions. I tried to
incoporate
the personality of Surpanakha that I got from reading the Ramayana by
Narayan. To me, Surpanakha seems to be the kind of person who
sees herself as having no faults and only good intentions (which are
typically directed towards herself). She had no worries. She was
convinced that Rama would love her back. She also assumed that
Rama and everyone else would understand her actions once she and Rama
were lovers. Surpanakha seems to be a very selfish person, doing
only things that give her rewards and satisfaction. I chose to
write the story in a diary format so you could see Surpanakha's
personality and the reasons behind her actions. Sometimes
it is interesting to the mind to read the bad person's version of
things and see where they were coming from. In this instance, it
is about Surpanakha's obsession with Rama. However, it can also
be about love and how that love is
triggered by someone as irresistible as Rama. Surpanakha is not
the only woman to be swept off her feet by Rama's nobility and
attractiveness. In my next story, you will see how Sita was swept
off her feet by Rama in the same way. Above all, I hope that
through my diary entries,
one can relate to Surpanakha and see that even though she is probably
quite evil, she still has feelings too. By this, I mean that
Surpanakha has more depth to her than her obvious infatuation with
Rama. I just basically wanted you to see how she felt as she was
trying to win Rama's heart.
Bibliography
Information:
Narayan, R.K. (1972) The
Ramayana: A Shortened Modern Prose
Version of the Indian Epic.
Buck, William (1976)
Ramayana: King Rama's Way.
